Disclaimer: This post may be out of topic with my other blog posts. It is just that I feel very emotional over something that happened and I want to find a channel to release all those emotions.
A lot of things happened the two weeks. It all started from an unexpected call from "MP" that I first contacted more than one year ago. It came at a time when I am making a decision to leave the place which I may feel that I have overstay. It is like destiny calling. Yes, I still enjoy the feeling of being able to help my "customers". I also like my bosses and the working environment. However being on the same job for the past few years is making me losing the passion in my work and I no longer feel excited over things happening. This coupled with the disappointment over certain management decision resulted me to go for the job interview arranged by "MP".
Before "MP" get back to me on the status of my job application, I know of something else (Little Ms Giggle is leaving in Dec and my coming transfer) that make me want to re-consider the decision again. I asked "GYM", who advised me to take up the offer and she said as long as I leave, everything would be good for me and I should not worry too much.
Having lady luck by my side as always, I got the offer from "MP" with a 25% increment (maybe even up to 30% increment, if I want to push for it). I must say that it is an attractive offer both in term of salary package and career development. I do not know whether I would be able to find another similar offer anytime soon.
I rejected the offer after much consideration. The main reason is that I know I would feel guilty toward my bosses if I choose to leave at this time as I would be the 3rd person leaving within the short span of 1 month. Plus I am suppose to cover Little Ms Giggle's work when she is gone and with me gone, I wonder whether my bosses could cope or not.
After making the decision, I cannot help to wonder whether am I being too kind to my bosses? Would they appreciate the effort at all? They could be nice to you because they need you now especially when Little Ms Giggle is leaving and when they do not need you, maybe they would kick you aside like a ball. They promoted Little Ms Giggle and planned to let her do the project, yet she decided to go off just like that. And here I am picking up the pieces and without any chance of a promotion in sight because they think that I'm lacking that quality (I am not able to "3 leg" the Big Boss on the top) to move up.
I hope I would not regret my decision to stay on in the organization and not to take the job offer.